Husband: "You look fine, honey"
Me (through tears): "I'm so sick and tired of feeling like this. I'm big. Not just big, but huge! I've never been this huge...EVER!"
So there you have it. That happens...daily. Three years ago, even after birthing five babies I was still able to feel confident struttin my stuff in next to nothing at the pool. Lean and lanky, my arms were scary thin and my legs couldn't grow muscle no matter how many times I shakily tried to push on that damn leg press. I swear if I turned sideways (pre-boob job) I would be almost invisible. My diet consisted of tortilla chips and red wine, at night only, because I was too busy juggling kids and work and, of course, my two hours a day at the gym.
Looking back though, was that even healthy? I wanted to be beautiful with that silky smooth flat belly and not a single cellulite dimple, but at what cost? I developed over the years a strong dependence on laxatives and an extremely poor self image. People comment to me things such as, "YOU'VE had five kids? You don't even look like you've had one!", which even though their intention was positive, I would just go home and look at all myself in the mirror...and barf.
Skinnyfat (definition from the Urban Dictionary)
A person who is not overweight and have skinny look but still have a high fat percentage and low muscular mass. Usually those people have a low caloric diet, that's why they are skinny, but are not involved in any sports activities or trainings and that's why they don’t have any muscle. Since between the bone and the skin those people only have fat, the skin can be deformed easily because the skin layer is located on an unstable matter (fat).
Skinny fat woman look sexy from a certain distance but they have soft jelly skin and still have some cellulite even if they are in there early 20.
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